So, i started my year 3 study with a happy heart. BUT!!!! That didn't last long! The food here is really expensive( makan= 1 nikmat yg best utk aku...sob), x byk variety, stesen minyak jauh gile.....naik tensen aku! (sebenarnye 70% ketensenan adalah disebabkan makanan...) Ditambah lg dgn awal pembelajaran aku, aku kena berhadapan dgn sorang lecturer yg garang utk 2 presentation dlm minggu yg sama. Hampir naik gile aku..(Ape ni? Lemah! Lemah!) Ketensenan bertambah apabila setiap kali aku buat kerja, aku dpt markah 50%!!! Hape?! muke aku ni muke 50% ke????!!! Sometimes, I felt like I am stupid. But,naah!! I'm pretty sure I'm not!! I'll never condamn myself! It's not healthy anyway.
Next, I want to write about my housemates. Actually, they were not my choice for housemates because they are completely different from me and I barely know them. Aku lebih kurang macam tercampak la masuk dlm rumah ni...aku kan kaca..xde sape nak reserve aku jadik house mate diorg...But when I get to know them better, they are the reason I feel happy everyday in this boring life!! I believe, only God knows better about me. so He arranged this things to happen.
Because I feel a little bit tense, I decided to let my feelings known by others. It's a tiring thing to keep your negative thinking to myself..and these people never thought of me if they bug me, so I think why do I bother to jaga org lain punye perasaan?? Then, I become someone that is really frank, who tells people whatever come across my mind. I know people will hate me more. But I'm really shocked that even some people hate me more, some communicate better with me. I even get new friends! What a weird thing happen to me!
I kept telling my parents that I never had a birthday cake for 5 years!!! (I REALLY LOVE CAKES!!!) so, on 17 July, my parents and my brother came to visit me!! They even brought a chocolate cakes! Then, we went to Jusco for lunch (because I kept complaining about the food). I had a really great day! My family supported me, they always pick me up when I feel dlm tanah punye down..
On 12 midnight, 18 July 2010, my housemates sang me happy birthday and we ate the cake together. That was the best birthday that I had for years. Terharu gile. Then, I opened the presents I received. There is a ring that my sister bought and I wear it until today. This ring reminds me that I am a female and I am an adult and I'm not alone( I always have my family wherever I am). I also received a locket of key and lock from my aunt. She gives the locket of key to any girl who turns 21. It is more like the key of freedom. when I look at the locket, I feel that I'm free to do anything i like!
Oh yes! My sister is pregnant! We were like celebrating it everyday! We're thinking what will the baby call us. what will the baby call me. Maybe Cik Nani is good. But, it sounds childish. Maybe Cik Ni? I want something unique and wonderful name!!! Luckily, i have another 6 months to think a name for me :)
I always feel bore. i'm thinking to go here and there and find new adventures! But travelling here and there is easier with a guy. So, I'm thinking of having a boyfriend that is having the brain( supaya x kena tipu) and money (to go here and there need money,ya know??). What a very selfish me...Niat yg kurang murni betul..X yah la buat...
Last but not least, I would like to end my writing with the word " I LOVE U REALLY THE STRONG" to my parents,siblings,roommate and housemates for supporting me when I really need somebody to cling to. Thank you very much