I'm sick!!

hello! hello!

this is me again! today is my last 2 days of being a lazy ass. i'm not well today.when i stand up from lying down, i feel giddy a little...



let's talk about SICKNESS. last 2 months, i was in my medicine posting and it was CRAZY!!! for someone as lazy as me, medicine posting is tougher than joining cross country everyday. but, luckily, i'm good in relieving stress (i'm not really sure about that, but i was OK, not totally become a maniac during that 2 month :) for someone who like to wake up 30 minutes before class start like me, woke up at 6.30 and wait for the bus at 7am was really a burden. the Selayang Hospital is huge,ya know...it takes a while to go from other ward to another. aku x tau kenapa diorang membazir ruang utk buat laluan yg boleh letak lg 30 katil pesakit..then, we had 3times of bedside teachings for a week. then, we had to wait for the bus to pick us to go back to Sungai Buloh..so..the class ended at 5pm, we arrived home about 6pm. so, my time with my laundry was secrifice!! ....>>>> (what a long intro!!) so, i get sick easily during that period..and today too! dulu aku demam setahun sekali, baik demam 1 hari je. semenjak masuk clinical year, dah brape kali aku demam, berminggu-minggu nak baik. mmg low immunity la..ade time aku demam tu, ade dr cakap dgn aku, tp aku x dgr. usually when i have a bad fever...flu...running nose, i can't hear well :( jd aku cakap kat dr tu "sori x dgr.bila demam selsema saya jd pekak sket. masuk ari ni dah 5 hr saya cam ni" pastu dr tu cakap "hmm...tunggu la ko jadik h.o..hari2 ko demam." really dr??????



lately, i'm always downloading korean videoclips. i just love to see them dance. sometimes, i just randomly watch korean videoclips from youtube (i also love to see random horror movies from youtube!>> Thai horror movies are the best!!!) i also watch "So You Think You Can Dance" if i'm home. i like to see people dancing because they look happy and I HAVE ZERO TALENT IN DANCING and org Melayu kata "belakang parang klu diasah akan tajam jugak" is not applicable to ME!! but for the fun and health sake, i try to copy all of the dances i see...and of course i look really really rediculous!!! but at least my sisters are laughing and i'm totally muka tebal! :)

>>>>there was one time i randomly watched youtube..and i found a song called "Thank You" by 2PM..and the lyric is really touching because it reminds me of my love ones. actually this song is made for their fans...but what the hell, it makes me keep thinking of my mother especially.and it makes me teary too!!!! the song goes like this:



i didn't know i was going to tell you like this
no words were enough
i couldn't say anything
i was so thankful
i didn't know what to do



why do you like me?
why do you choose me among so many people?
what i could do for you is so lacking



so i thank u thank u thank u
and i love u love u love u
i wasn't able to do anything for you
but you just keep on giving without stopping
so i thank u thank u thank u
and i love u love u love u
because of the love u gave me
i'm standing here like this



i know how difficult it is
to live while loving me
but u keep standing on that place
without any change
just for me



why don't u turn around
it must be tiring for you, why do keep loving me
i didn't know how to repay u again
so i made this song



those words in red are the culprit that make me teary!!plus, the singer keep yelling "WHY!!" in the sad way. actually those are the question that i want to ask to people that is good to me eventhough i'm acting like...like..idiot!!WHY ARE U GOOD TO ME!! do you just pity me, or do you just being nice to everybody? what do i have?? i don't have anything. i don't have the friendly face, i don't have any wealth, i don't have the kindness, i don't have any talent that people say "wow" when they see it.why??for whatever reasons, thank u for being nice to me. only Allah can repay you

next thing that crossed my mind this time is my 3rd sister. when she was little, she was acting like pampered little girl..which i don't like until today when i see that type of girl!! so, we fought..and fought...and it was a climax to the fighting series when my mother said that she MUST stay in MY ROOM, that I spend my precious time alone happily. we don't match with each other...then the fight become like America Afghanistan war (but nobody died..just some bruises and few blood and few loss of skin). but year by year i become more mature and she become more mature.so, we don't fight much now.eventhough she has the attitude that i don't like and i have the attitude that she don't like..we're ok with each other. then, the "magic" song by b.o.b came out, jadik aku ubah lagu tu jadik "i got the magic in me..when i close my eyes hakimah(her name) turns into gold..." and that makes me happy. it is stupid when you're angry with someone, you say something like "i wish that your dead" or "aku sumpah ko jadik katak". kalau nak sumpah, say something like "i wish u turn into gold/a house"..bleh jual..lbh berfaedah.heheee

last but the most important, LOVE YOUR FAMILY EVERYDAY.
good day!!