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hi! how are you? i hope you're doing good :)
hmm...me? i feel a little bit happy. at the same time, emotionally, i feel very tired. it's about my heart. i'm 22 years-old this july and it's the first time that i'm having this feeling.
you see, i have a friend that i love but i don't like. she did many good things to me. that is why i love her. that's why i can't punch her on her face when she hurt my feelings.
i know she can't socialize well. her attitude is unethical (ethic=right or wrong behaviour of a specific culture, society, group or individual), so with and without she realizing her surroundings, she hurts many people feelings. actually, she has a good heart..so..to hate her is impossible for me. she don't know how to control her emotions and her emotions are the extremes. like, she is very very very happy, that shows on every inches in her movements and speech, and those things are annoying to me. like, when she is very happy, she starts to speak cutely like a baby. eventhough i don't like to hear her voice when she is happy, i never said anything to her because i don't want to crush her happiness, which is very rarely happen. she rerely feel happy. she always angry or sad. can you tell me, which mentally healthy human can stand minimum 3 days in a week, a friend with a solemn face, comes in the room with no eye contact and no talking like 'hi!' or whatever and she bangs her stuffs like running amok? well, believe me or not, that mentally healthy person is me. but i have the feeling like she eats, engulf my happiness and daily joy with her dark and unstable aura. she has no normal, in-between feelings( not in a bad mood and not in the good mood either) or what we called biasa-biasa je. takde.
i can stand those amoks but recently, she doesn't even respect me as a human..and she even try to shake my confident. hey, that makes me furious!! so, i start to think, why on earth that i have to stand this person who has an emotion typhoon? she don't even care about what i feel. what she knows only "if something wrong happen to me, i fire my anger and sadness to everyone surrounds me." and another thing, she has a big EGO (can confirm it with everyone who knows her). oh yes, even she knows that she hurts my feeling badly, she never appologized.
so, i'm having this thought to breaking the friendship. but, i cancelled it. i just don't have to see her everyday. i try to forget her but, i can't. she did many, many good things to me. beside her wrong-socializing techniques, she is a good person. so finally, i try to be cool, no yelling, no face- punching, be frank, try not to see her everyday and pray to God to make her understand the world, understand human and understand herself. my parents always say, if people who always sad or angry the whole time, marry is the cure. you know what? i believe this. so, i hope she finds a good husband soon. God bless you. may Allah and a good husband watch your back because i'm out and moving on happily :)