I'm alive

Hi! I't's me again..I'm alive.I'm surviving living in this world!
I'm such a lazy people that's always wanting to do more than I can cope during this busy life. i have an exam to attend(but I don't think that I'm prepared), I have a sister who will be getting married about less than a month(eventhough I'm not helping much, I just kind of getting the telepathy about how busy and anxious everybody in my family), I'm feeling down because people treating me like a glass(new proverb created by me: LIKE A GLASS-meaning:people know that you're exist but they just see through you;it doesn't matter you're there or not. You're just invincible and transparent. But at the same time, you're fragile.You get hurt easily. But when people break you, you'll puncture their skin!!)
I'm a glass- that's what I was feeling lately. For people like me, I'm thankful because I have friends that pull me up when I fell and hit the ground.

Let's talk about something else,shall we?Happy things..
My sister is getting married to one of the almost extinct good men ; the man that is not smoking, pay for the wedding, good to the sisters-in-law-to-be..he's funny too!
I'm not really sure that I will be getting married one day because
1. I don't act like a female
2. It's hard for me to follow orders (husband's orders-why are you ordering me around???!!)
3. I hate husbands who just sit and watch football, but the wife is almost died from tiredness doing house works-padahal laki bini keje sama2!!!(There's no such thing as keje laki/pompuan!!!)
But,surprisingly, I love to have my own kids!! I even thought my kid's name since I was 14!!! If I will be married someday, I hope that my husband is more friend-like, not a boss-like(typical asian husbands)

When my cat, Beauty died, I started to appreciate people around me more. When my one and only grandfather passed away last month, I want to spend more time with my family and do good to them. Instead of travelling, I better to learn how to make baju kurung from my grandmother and cooking my favourite food with my mother. Compared to travelling, I love my family more. Like I said before, I'm a glass. I need them. They are the supporters of my life. Every person in this world will die someday. Before that happens, I think, I'm going to spend my precious time and create unforgettable memory with them :)
I'm really missing my grandfather. Sometimes, seeing old man with really short white hairs makes me think of my grandfather. Seeing Prof Ghassan also makes me thinking of him :) My grandfather LOVED his grandchildren. When I was little, his face was shining like the sun when he saw me. He gave a big smile, then, he would pat my head, pinched and kissed my cheek and gave me teddy bear. He was the only person who had give me teddy bear. Sadly, I gave up the teddy bear long time ago because my mother said that I'm too old for teddy bears. Never mind, his memory is playing over and over again in my head like a good movie.

That's all for now. Got to read Gupa's meningioma note.