the infamous invincible beast

hi how are you?
i'm quite busy because exam is just around the corner and currently feel like anhedonia.

mm...since i was little, i am surrounded with pretty, gorgeous, talented human beings. i have a pretty mother, demure elder sister, gutsy little sisters that i respect their unique attitude, pretty face, brainy, confident and much talented friends....yeah, i like  my self. but when i look at the picture, it looks like beauties and the beast. like this:

credit to azar nadhirah. sorry i took your pic from fb because i don't have proper pic of u guys :(

i'm not good in posing in front of camera too. when people say..".hey guys, give me a cute pose. " i was thinking "i'm naturally not cute. how on earth to act cute??" besides, smiling is hard too..it makes my cheeks sore by taking too much pictures..

so guys, if i'm not smiling, it doesn't mean that i'm unhappy...sometimes when i'm in a good mood, and singing inside my heart, i still looks like i'm about to chew and swallow a person! if i'm expressionless, doesn't mean that i'm not interested. if i'm talking about my boring life, doesn't mean that i don't care about your life.....it just..i don't know how to start a conversation. i'm very sorry.
 i don't want to hurt feelings. believe me or not, i'm trying everytime  i see a person other than me.

p/s- i got 'C' in social when i was in kindergarten