Beauty...Beauty again...according to me..

i just want to share a feeling that i have right now..
a week ago, i watch TLC (travel and living channel) and i was amazed by this suku kaum in China which each and every female in that village has a very very long hair!! the hair was about 2m long. but, what amazed the host of that programe, my sisters and i is the hair is very healthy, shiny, without split ends and their elders don't have much grey hair!!! they said, they are using water from washing the rice. the water was kept for a week before they can use it to wash their hair nand face. so, the minutes after that, i wash the rice (because i need to cook anyways) and kept the water...i hope i will have the same healthy and shiny hair like them. today, i wash my hair and face using the water that i kept for a week and it was really really reallly SMELL VERY BAD!!!!! The bathroom smells too because of it!! so, i complained to my sister, she said "ayah said once, that his friend once said, BEAUTY IS PAIN" owh...shoot!! i never wanted to harm myself for beauty. i'm interested to be beautiful but IT IS NOT WORTH IT!!!

SK11 also using water from washing the rice in their product and it is very expensive to me. i usually think, why do we need to buy SK11 when we can have the rice water in our home?? we eat rice everyday by the way...and now, today, i got the answer..SK11 don't smell like this..people who use SK11 is not suffering like i do..

that's all for today.bye bye
p/s-my mother is prettiest in the world!!

I'm sick!!

hello! hello!

this is me again! today is my last 2 days of being a lazy ass. i'm not well today.when i stand up from lying down, i feel giddy a little...



let's talk about SICKNESS. last 2 months, i was in my medicine posting and it was CRAZY!!! for someone as lazy as me, medicine posting is tougher than joining cross country everyday. but, luckily, i'm good in relieving stress (i'm not really sure about that, but i was OK, not totally become a maniac during that 2 month :) for someone who like to wake up 30 minutes before class start like me, woke up at 6.30 and wait for the bus at 7am was really a burden. the Selayang Hospital is huge,ya know...it takes a while to go from other ward to another. aku x tau kenapa diorang membazir ruang utk buat laluan yg boleh letak lg 30 katil pesakit..then, we had 3times of bedside teachings for a week. then, we had to wait for the bus to pick us to go back to Sungai Buloh..so..the class ended at 5pm, we arrived home about 6pm. so, my time with my laundry was secrifice!! ....>>>> (what a long intro!!) so, i get sick easily during that period..and today too! dulu aku demam setahun sekali, baik demam 1 hari je. semenjak masuk clinical year, dah brape kali aku demam, berminggu-minggu nak baik. mmg low immunity la..ade time aku demam tu, ade dr cakap dgn aku, tp aku x dgr. usually when i have a bad fever...flu...running nose, i can't hear well :( jd aku cakap kat dr tu "sori x dgr.bila demam selsema saya jd pekak sket. masuk ari ni dah 5 hr saya cam ni" pastu dr tu cakap "hmm...tunggu la ko jadik h.o..hari2 ko demam." really dr??????



lately, i'm always downloading korean videoclips. i just love to see them dance. sometimes, i just randomly watch korean videoclips from youtube (i also love to see random horror movies from youtube!>> Thai horror movies are the best!!!) i also watch "So You Think You Can Dance" if i'm home. i like to see people dancing because they look happy and I HAVE ZERO TALENT IN DANCING and org Melayu kata "belakang parang klu diasah akan tajam jugak" is not applicable to ME!! but for the fun and health sake, i try to copy all of the dances i see...and of course i look really really rediculous!!! but at least my sisters are laughing and i'm totally muka tebal! :)

>>>>there was one time i randomly watched youtube..and i found a song called "Thank You" by 2PM..and the lyric is really touching because it reminds me of my love ones. actually this song is made for their fans...but what the hell, it makes me keep thinking of my mother especially.and it makes me teary too!!!! the song goes like this:



i didn't know i was going to tell you like this
no words were enough
i couldn't say anything
i was so thankful
i didn't know what to do



why do you like me?
why do you choose me among so many people?
what i could do for you is so lacking



so i thank u thank u thank u
and i love u love u love u
i wasn't able to do anything for you
but you just keep on giving without stopping
so i thank u thank u thank u
and i love u love u love u
because of the love u gave me
i'm standing here like this



i know how difficult it is
to live while loving me
but u keep standing on that place
without any change
just for me



why don't u turn around
it must be tiring for you, why do keep loving me
i didn't know how to repay u again
so i made this song



those words in red are the culprit that make me teary!!plus, the singer keep yelling "WHY!!" in the sad way. actually those are the question that i want to ask to people that is good to me eventhough i'm acting like...like..idiot!!WHY ARE U GOOD TO ME!! do you just pity me, or do you just being nice to everybody? what do i have?? i don't have anything. i don't have the friendly face, i don't have any wealth, i don't have the kindness, i don't have any talent that people say "wow" when they see it.why??for whatever reasons, thank u for being nice to me. only Allah can repay you

next thing that crossed my mind this time is my 3rd sister. when she was little, she was acting like pampered little girl..which i don't like until today when i see that type of girl!! so, we fought..and fought...and it was a climax to the fighting series when my mother said that she MUST stay in MY ROOM, that I spend my precious time alone happily. we don't match with each other...then the fight become like America Afghanistan war (but nobody died..just some bruises and few blood and few loss of skin). but year by year i become more mature and she become more mature.so, we don't fight much now.eventhough she has the attitude that i don't like and i have the attitude that she don't like..we're ok with each other. then, the "magic" song by b.o.b came out, jadik aku ubah lagu tu jadik "i got the magic in me..when i close my eyes hakimah(her name) turns into gold..." and that makes me happy. it is stupid when you're angry with someone, you say something like "i wish that your dead" or "aku sumpah ko jadik katak". kalau nak sumpah, say something like "i wish u turn into gold/a house"..bleh jual..lbh berfaedah.heheee

last but the most important, LOVE YOUR FAMILY EVERYDAY.
good day!!

okeh!!i'm not that busy!!

HAiiiii!!! Slamat Hari Raya!!!
Aku sgt suka hari raya sebenarnye. Xtau la kenapa.Hmmmm...maybe i can rest a bit(Bye bye books!bye bye Class!bye bye hectic life!!) I can spend time with my family..wake up late...be a little bit friendly to other people...I am really sorry to people who say "I don't feel fun in hari raya anymore.." for whatever reason..

Enough with the chit chat! When I am not really busy, otak aku akan beker ja lbh teratur, I become less forgetful, I can think many other things other than "Oh, esok ada klas tu ni...tutorial...halamak! camne nak siapkan case write up!!!!". These are the things that came to my mind lately:

1. IF I'm damn rich, our front yard would become padang golf..siap dgn tukang jaga rumput, mesin siram rumput automatik...my ayah will be really happy.
2. If I'm filthy rich, when my parents say "wow...that is a pretty shirt/jubah/car"..those things would appear in front of them tomorrow.
3. If I were a boy, I would play rugby, play footsal with my coursemates until 2am, travel the world alone and not wearing a shirt everyday.
4. if I'm really strong, I would step on Malay people who was eating proudly in public during fasting month, hantam sama org yg sesedap hati je bantai org yg lg lemah, pompuan dgn org tua..
5. If I have a talent (sports/dancing/really good memory) definitely I don't have to study much, I would use my talent to get money.(God really wants me to study, because He knew that I am THIS lazy, so He didn't give me talent)
6. I really wish to be a fish in a week so that I can meneroka lautan. People go to outer space, but they never went to the deepest sea...very mystery..I like!!
7. If the languages classes are free, I am really sure that I can speak Japanese, Korean, Cantonese, Tamil, Spanish, Tagalog fluently :)
8. If Fatin were less famous, I could spend time with her every holiday.( Very stupid. I'm happy that she has good friends. i want her to be happy. macam la aku sentiasa free.)
9. I wish that my siblings are slimmer and healthy.
10. If only I can eat cakes everyday..
11. If only we can eat only when we want to eat, sleep when we want to sleep. We don't have to eat/sleep everyday.
12. I wish that there are 30 hours a day.
13. if only I have a car...I can get together with friends..
14. If I rule a country, recycling is a must to everybody..Everyday, there would be workers(kata org x cukup kerja..) checking on every garbage in every houses/restaurants/schools to make sure they throw only things that can't be recycle. If not, the owner of the house will be fine for RM50 everyday. There were many new works like public watcher in EVERY public places(to prevent littering), river watcher, weight watcher...For people who is overweight, he will be forced to exercise like in the biggest looser or maybe,sparta-like. For man who dress like woman, he will have to join army for a month. For a woman who dresses like a man, she have to learn sewing...then, the country will be healthy :)

Hmm...some of those are silly. I should be thankful for the things that I have :)

Sungai Buloh!! Sungai Buloh!!

Hi there! Dah lama aku x menaip. Aku sgt pemalas...Tp hari ni aku nak menaip jugak sbb aku rasa sakit hati...kira release tension la ni...

Let's start the story. On July 2010, I 'moved' to Sungai Buloh....at first, I was really excited and happy because in my room, I have a really big almari eventhough the room is small...(what a weird reason to be happy,isn't it?). My roommate is Adia...so, I'm worried... I like her so much..she such a great friend..but I'm not really sure we would match to be roommates. Ya know, I like the room to be pitch black dark when I'm sleeping but Adia always sleep with the light on. That's such an contra..like black and white, like durian and cucumber. I don't want to lose a friendship if we fight about small,small stupid thing. maybe we can be like beauty and the beast that get along so well!

At first, I felt a little bit dissapointed because my room is the first room when we enter the house. I imagined things like...what if a burglar come into the house? He surely will enter my room first. I shooed the negative thinking like, if he come into my room, I'll definitely try very hard to do whatever it takes to harm him!! Of course, nak dibandingkan dgn kekuatan lelaki, dia tepis aku sekali je aku dah melayang! Tapi, melayang2 aku pon, aku akan pastikan dia cedera kat mana2!! then, I realised that the view from my room is superb! I like it very much!!

So, i started my year 3 study with a happy heart. BUT!!!! That didn't last long! The food here is really expensive( makan= 1 nikmat yg best utk aku...sob), x byk variety, stesen minyak jauh gile.....naik tensen aku! (sebenarnye 70% ketensenan adalah disebabkan makanan...) Ditambah lg dgn awal pembelajaran aku, aku kena berhadapan dgn sorang lecturer yg garang utk 2 presentation dlm minggu yg sama. Hampir naik gile aku..(Ape ni? Lemah! Lemah!) Ketensenan bertambah apabila setiap kali aku buat kerja, aku dpt markah 50%!!! Hape?! muke aku ni muke 50% ke????!!! Sometimes, I felt like I am stupid. But,naah!! I'm pretty sure I'm not!! I'll never condamn myself! It's not healthy anyway.

Next, I want to write about my housemates. Actually, they were not my choice for housemates because they are completely different from me and I barely know them. Aku lebih kurang macam tercampak la masuk dlm rumah ni...aku kan kaca..xde sape nak reserve aku jadik house mate diorg...But when I get to know them better, they are the reason I feel happy everyday in this boring life!! I believe, only God knows better about me. so He arranged this things to happen.

Because I feel a little bit tense, I decided to let my feelings known by others. It's a tiring thing to keep your negative thinking to myself..and these people never thought of me if they bug me, so I think why do I bother to jaga org lain punye perasaan?? Then, I become someone that is really frank, who tells people whatever come across my mind. I know people will hate me more. But I'm really shocked that even some people hate me more, some communicate better with me. I even get new friends! What a weird thing happen to me!

I kept telling my parents that I never had a birthday cake for 5 years!!! (I REALLY LOVE CAKES!!!) so, on 17 July, my parents and my brother came to visit me!! They even brought a chocolate cakes! Then, we went to Jusco for lunch (because I kept complaining about the food). I had a really great day! My family supported me, they always pick me up when I feel dlm tanah punye down..

On 12 midnight, 18 July 2010, my housemates sang me happy birthday and we ate the cake together. That was the best birthday that I had for years. Terharu gile. Then, I opened the presents I received. There is a ring that my sister bought and I wear it until today. This ring reminds me that I am a female and I am an adult and I'm not alone( I always have my family wherever I am). I also received a locket of key and lock from my aunt. She gives the locket of key to any girl who turns 21. It is more like the key of freedom. when I look at the locket, I feel that I'm free to do anything i like!

Oh yes! My sister is pregnant! We were like celebrating it everyday! We're thinking what will the baby call us. what will the baby call me. Maybe Cik Nani is good. But, it sounds childish. Maybe Cik Ni? I want something unique and wonderful name!!! Luckily, i have another 6 months to think a name for me :)

I always feel bore. i'm thinking to go here and there and find new adventures! But travelling here and there is easier with a guy. So, I'm thinking of having a boyfriend that is having the brain( supaya x kena tipu) and money (to go here and there need money,ya know??). What a very selfish me...Niat yg kurang murni betul..X yah la buat...

Last but not least, I would like to end my writing with the word " I LOVE U REALLY THE STRONG" to my parents,siblings,roommate and housemates for supporting me when I really need somebody to cling to. Thank you very much

Happy life goes on!!

Hi there!Most importantly, hi myself!!!! I'd been really busy last semester. Well, I guess, I worked hard and I'm really happy with myself for that!!! Last skali aku rajin adalah time aku PMR. Tu pon bila aku pikir yg aku betol2 bodo...(algebra yg senang pon x tau buat...I was really dissapointed with myself that time!!)

Cakap pasal belajar, there are really a lot of people think that I'm clever,brilliant,have more brain than other human....actually, I AM REALLY NOT!!!. When I say "tak lah....mana ade.." SECARA BERSUNGGUH2, they say "wa..what a humble person you are..". The only things that I have to survive my study days are :
1. Normal brain, with the neurons that I think,not properly connected(well,my mother didn't drink Anmum when she was pregnant and I didn't drink Dumex too)
2.Luck/rezeki
3.My parents' love and prayers

Sambung lg...lps sibuk sepanjang sem,time cuti ni aku jd terlalu malas utk buat pape. Everyday I wake up late, eat, watching tv/internet while lying down, eat, sleep....So, I gain 2kg...there are fat all over the body. I wish the fat don't ever clog my arteries..

This holiday, I spent my time enjoying myself!!!! I spend time with my families, berfoya2 dgn kengkawandan berehat2 sepanjang hari. I also cut my hair at Shah Alam. Mahal wehhhh!!!! Gatal lg nak cuba2 kat sini!! With my extraordinary special hair, she charged me RM25!!! Thank goodness that she cut my hair nicely! This makes me LOVE my Seremban more! the most expensive price I pay for cutting my hair in Seremban is only RM16!! I LOVE U SEREMBAN!!

Oh yes, talking about exam, my younger sister1 will sitting for SPM, younger sister2 PMR and younger brother UPSR. Sian mak ayah aku...I don't see them studying hard at all. I hope they work hard everyday.

Setelah lama x menulis,byk benda yg aku nak tulis sebenarnya...All the things that I've been thinking lately are mixed up in my brain! My poor brain!! Don't get old before my age!! Oh I'm just feeling old since last year x _ x

Let's talk about BEAUTY :) !!!! First of all, I think beauty is really depends on the person! And I'm not a beauty either!! But I think people who don't use their eyes to see what is beauty to him, he just depends on the advertisement(like whitening, slimming advertisement) is really REALLY STUPID!! We're human!! We're not a mass production of factory goods! Why must we be the same? Why must we WANT to be the same?
Haha! Why am I very emotional here ;P? Let's go to the beauty according to me!!

1. the person who thank God for whatever he has
2. the person who is optimist and always happy and calm
3. the person who has great confidence in himself(he is humble too at the same time!)
4. people who has great beautiful smile (I can't take my eyes off!!)
5. org yg ada taring panjang
6. org yg ada gigi susu terkeluar drp landasan gigi2 lain (cam Adia & Fatin)
7. people with healthy skin
8. people who is fit (one time, I watched some Korea show on tv, there was a female celebrity that has a pretty face and slim body. But, when she waved her hand, her underarm is flabby and it was also waving in all directions. That time, the image of pretty her just dissapear in my head!)

...that's all the important things that I can remember for now. Like I said, I'm not a beauty. So, who am I to judge people appearance?

Oh yes!!Lately, I like this person in Big Bang because he has a very manly, sweet voice!!! The best part is, I don't even know his name!!!But,there's a picture:the rightmost manI LOVE LOVE LOVE this unknown man for his voice!! I don't care if his a Malay, Chinese, Indian, Sikh, Ibanese, whatever suku kaum, whatever nationality, whatever language is the songs, even he has no nose, as long as the song sounds great and his voice is uniquely wonderful, I LOVE him!!!!

Oh yes, I don't understand why people like someone just only because of his/her face. Seriously. For example "waahhh...look! look! That guy is hot!! I want to get his number" Seriously. What do you get if your friend/boy/girlfriend has a good look? Proud? For what? Seriously. I don't get it. I try to figure it out since I was in primary school until now. Guess I don't have the answer. If the guy is deadly handsome, does that means that he is a good person? Does that mean that he can definitely treat you well? Does that means that he never did any crime? If he suddenly had an accident and he lost his eyes, nose and has a big,ugly scar on his face,do you still love him? Do you still PROUD to have a friend like him? Seriously. I once asked these things to a person who liked to make friends with hot guys, she answered me this "Sebab best" and she also said "Sebab ko x cantik la ko x paham" . Well,the part about me is true but she didn't give me a convincing answer.It still puzzles me. Then I thought, whatever! It's really depends on individual. Who am I to ask. There are better things to think like those in Netter or Hutchinson or what do I want to eat for dinner??>>>

Mari citer pasal benda lain pulak!!! What are the things that I want but it's almost impossible to get it? Kenape impossible? Because I'm not girly enough to receive these things!!!

1. Flower- I don't like flowers but I like to have them once in a lifetime(ONLY). It's a symbol of girl and beauty. I think I'm pretty selfish.
   
2. Musical box - it is a pretty thing to keep my broaches and accessories..

ah....a dream is just a dream..(sigh)

My sister got married!!! I'm happy for her because she is really happy. And I'm happy too because my brother in law is a great addition in our family. He has really good qualities in him. My sister is lucky. He is funny, friendly, non-smoker, help with housework, kind...(klu dia dengar ni kembang satu badan)I feel like that suddenly I have 2 older brothers and I'm happy. Congratulations to the newly wed!!!!But sometimes I really fed up with my family and sometimes I just want to disappear because since my sister got married,my family start to have jokes about I fall in love and get married. They told me to find boyfriend and get married fast.It's not even funny and I hate to hear them. It's stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid STUPID STUPID!!!! I don't even thinking to marry. So they say "when the time comes, you want to get married." Yeah that's right!! WHEN THE TIME COMES is WHEN IT HAPPENS!!!! So, right now, DON'T EVER TALK ABOUT IT!!!!!!!

ooohh...I felt relief expressing myself here. Thanks technology!!! Bye bye for now!!!

I'm alive

Hi! I't's me again..I'm alive.I'm surviving living in this world!
I'm such a lazy people that's always wanting to do more than I can cope during this busy life. i have an exam to attend(but I don't think that I'm prepared), I have a sister who will be getting married about less than a month(eventhough I'm not helping much, I just kind of getting the telepathy about how busy and anxious everybody in my family), I'm feeling down because people treating me like a glass(new proverb created by me: LIKE A GLASS-meaning:people know that you're exist but they just see through you;it doesn't matter you're there or not. You're just invincible and transparent. But at the same time, you're fragile.You get hurt easily. But when people break you, you'll puncture their skin!!)
I'm a glass- that's what I was feeling lately. For people like me, I'm thankful because I have friends that pull me up when I fell and hit the ground.

Let's talk about something else,shall we?Happy things..
My sister is getting married to one of the almost extinct good men ; the man that is not smoking, pay for the wedding, good to the sisters-in-law-to-be..he's funny too!
I'm not really sure that I will be getting married one day because
1. I don't act like a female
2. It's hard for me to follow orders (husband's orders-why are you ordering me around???!!)
3. I hate husbands who just sit and watch football, but the wife is almost died from tiredness doing house works-padahal laki bini keje sama2!!!(There's no such thing as keje laki/pompuan!!!)
But,surprisingly, I love to have my own kids!! I even thought my kid's name since I was 14!!! If I will be married someday, I hope that my husband is more friend-like, not a boss-like(typical asian husbands)

When my cat, Beauty died, I started to appreciate people around me more. When my one and only grandfather passed away last month, I want to spend more time with my family and do good to them. Instead of travelling, I better to learn how to make baju kurung from my grandmother and cooking my favourite food with my mother. Compared to travelling, I love my family more. Like I said before, I'm a glass. I need them. They are the supporters of my life. Every person in this world will die someday. Before that happens, I think, I'm going to spend my precious time and create unforgettable memory with them :)
I'm really missing my grandfather. Sometimes, seeing old man with really short white hairs makes me think of my grandfather. Seeing Prof Ghassan also makes me thinking of him :) My grandfather LOVED his grandchildren. When I was little, his face was shining like the sun when he saw me. He gave a big smile, then, he would pat my head, pinched and kissed my cheek and gave me teddy bear. He was the only person who had give me teddy bear. Sadly, I gave up the teddy bear long time ago because my mother said that I'm too old for teddy bears. Never mind, his memory is playing over and over again in my head like a good movie.

That's all for now. Got to read Gupa's meningioma note.

Headache!

Headache??It's something that rarely occur to me..But lately...i have a feeling that i have a headache when I have to study statistic.It is not an actual headache..it's just a feeling of "I DON'T WANT TO DO THIS!!"..It's a weird..weird feeling.
Right now, I'm attending a class in the computer lab..I don't understand a thing!! I know this is not the lecturer's problem..Then, I'm asking myself.."am I stupid?" then,part of me say "definitely not!". Then, I remember that I had experienced this thing before: That was when I was studying additional mathematics and taekwondo before. I know that I have no talents-what so-ever..but I'm good at not giving up.So, I have decided that I will try and try(eventhough each time i do really bad I feel down and down..but i never crash!) even if I'm really pathetic at those things!

oh yes!one thing that I somehow feel stupid is this blog! I have a blog..but I thing it's very ugly(because I'm very bad in computer stuffs) and I feel ashame to show it to other !So,the total number of people know about my blog is less than 5! yeah,I am pathetic..

LAST WEEK, I and Adia had a 5 days agreement of kesopanan. Since we are aware that we are really rough in our movements,words and MY clothes..we had challenged ourselves:
1.NOT TO USE ANY CURSING WORDS(not even "stupid")
2.WEAR BAJU KURUNG FOR 5DAYS(this was a big problem for me!)
3.JANGAN MENGELUH(the hardest part ever)
Lately, I found out that mengeluh is not good!sssssso...I try to reduce it!

I am waiting eagerly for the midsem and Chinese New Year break..I'm missing my family and I hope that I can spend more time with them! :)

Hello 2010!!

HI there! I'm always hoping that everybody's life is great! Sometimes, when I see people laugh freely (not the evil laugh and not the cover-cover laugh when people with opposite sex is around!) really make me happy..(eventhough i don't know that person)...Farhain and Haidir really fall in that category of laugh!

(Did you know?: Dr Muhd said, Farhain means happy-happy...it's double the happiness!! I might consider this name if I have a daughter)

This year, I'm trying my best to be thankful to what I have instead of wanting something that I don't have(like Nink Vujicic said)....For examples..I am really jealous to other girls because they are girlish .sob...eventhough I AM A GIRL!! I'm not girlish and I can't figure out why. In medicine..when we can't figure out the reason, we'll call it 'IDIOPATHIC'....when the cause of the disease is idiopathic, the prognosis or outcome is poor because we can't treat the underlying disease..This situation is 100% similar to mine.

Examples: Girls do crazy( I mean really really really crazy) for something..but I never had that craziness!!

-Like...my bestfriend would go and search for Glay, Nicholas Tse CD, posters, bookmark...and many more(lately,she's into Zaquan Adha....am I spelling the name right?)

-I heard one of my friend bought a new handphone simply because the models of the handphone model is her favourite Korean group....

I REALLY DO WANT TO EXPERIENCE THAT!! To me, it makes a girl's life more colourful. Oh I forgot! My colours are dull colours :like blue, brown, grey,green..(I love them)

so, now I want to stop the feeling of wanting more..because it will only make me sad(a little).

Instead, I want to hang out with new friends. Doing whatever things that come to my mind. Loving myself, friends and family more!

I love car boot sale! Eventhough that day was extremely hot and I had a sore throat(I hate sore throat!) kena pegi jugak sbb keluarga aku kirim baaaanyaaak barang!

This goat is really cute!- watching at the camera when I wanted to take pictures!

Shopping with some new friends :)

Let's talk about something else, shall we? At last,the ENGAGEMENT CEREMONY OF MY SISTER went well! Eventhough I'm tired, it's somehow a happy day. I was happy that my sister trust my make up skill when she asked me to help her make up(I'm not a pro so, my cousin also helped). x sia2 aku punye masa berminit habis depan cermin sblm keluar! So, congratulations Kakak! I hope that you're happy with Fahmi. Kalau x............*@%$>&^!

I was really happy that many of her friends came from all over Malaysia to see her. I do hope that when my time comes, my friends will do the same :)

I think..it's hard to be a Malay because we have engagement ceremony and it is complicated. We must have tepak sirih, sireh junjung( I really think we don't need it because we just don't eat sirih like old days)...and must satisfy both family members...it's not easy. I don't hate the traditions though(because it makes us different)..but the most difficult part,it is MONEY consuming!!! Oh I wish to have western-like engagement like "will you marry me" for all of the sudden, and "I,do", and have the ring and "WE'RE ENGAGE!!!" as simple as that!

Uh!Uh! My bestfriend, Fatin also came :) It's a heart-breaking not to be able to go out with her for soooo long and I think, I've started to develop a jealous feeling toward her boyfriend because of that! Sabar..sabar...just don't think about things that I dont have..Just thankful that I was able to see her this time :)

SO EVERYBODY...START YOUR DAY/YEAR WITH HAPPY THINGS, HAPPY THOUGHTS AND HAPPY FACE!!!